“I need a drink,” Maud said.

I refrained from mentioning she had already drunk too much. “If we don’t go now, we’ll miss the bus to the airport,” I said instead.

“Don’t be so practical, Wren,” Maud scolded. She signaled the pub man. He saw her gesture, shook his head, and turned away.

“It’s because we’re Americans,” I said.

Despite Maud’s classic Irish beauty, her red hair and green eyes, the Irish always recognized us as Americans. They always spotted the way we moved through the world, proud, arrogant and afraid.

We’d spent the early part of the afternoon pub crawling and music hunting. We’d followed the strains of Irish songs from one location to another, the music more intoxicating than the pints of Guinness stout ale.

This place was Irish Traditional, cheap linoleum flooring with scarred, rickety tables and benches scattered about, the smell of stale meat pies, ale and old-cigarettes-before-the-ban in the hazy air. Overheated, it was stuffed with the warmth and crush of human bodies. The windows were misted over, obscuring the rainy September day outside.

“They’re starting another tune,” Maud complained. “So why can’t I get another drink?” She ran her hands through her short cropped hair, hacked away after the accident. Even in the fluorescent light of the pub, her dark red hair glowed, an aura of blood around her head.

I reached out to stroke a curl and she jerked her head away, our rhythm ruined.

“Your hair looks like a halo,” I said.

“Saint Maud,” she said, “the patron saint of losers.”

The tables were pushed close together, so that the drinkers sat claustrophobic elbow to elbow. In the cleared space, a fiddler sat upon a bar stool. While he fiddled, patrons took turns dancing jigs. They earned applause and sometimes a drink, for their ability to go through the ancient dance steps. Steps I once knew well.

“Join in this time, Maud,” I suggested.

When she played, she stopped thinking about drinking. She stopped thinking about the harp. I believed that she even stopped thinking about Aoife.

“No, I’ve not been asked.”

“They don’t know that’s a harp you’ve got, and they never ask.” I wanted to kick the wrapped canvas bundle at her feet, an addiction worse than the alcohol. If I could only get her home, back to America.

“Quiet, Wren, they’re starting,” Maud said.

During this last jig, an old man danced. He held his pint in one hand as he leapt around the room and never spilled a drop. He wore glasses with thick lenses that obscured his eyes. How could he see to dance?

My legs quivered with the need to join him, until a sharp jab of pain around my damaged knee stilled them, but not my desire.

The last of the notes died. The old man received a fresh pint for his dance. Everyone turned back to the business of finishing the last pint.

“You should have played, Maud,” I said.

“Why didn’t you dance then?”

I winced.

Maud touched my bad knee. “Never mind. I can’t play well enough. In a year, then maybe. If we stay.”

“We can’t stay. We’re due back tomorrow.”

“It’d be easy enough for them to find somebody else to teach Music 101 and Modern Dance.”

“And what would we live on?” I said. Our old argument, often repeated in this final week in Ireland, as both our time and money grew short.

“You never used to ask that before.”

“Before is dead and gone.”

Maud dropped her hand.

The old man appeared at our table. “It’s Americans you are then?” he said. He grinned, with black stumps instead of teeth. A musty smell of old damp wool permeated his being. Old wool and worse, I caught the effluvium of rotted teeth and aged shoe leather, too long worn.

“So what is it you’ve have wrapped there, swaddled like it was your own wee babe?”

Maud unwrapped the harp from its blanket and carrying straps. She’d never been able to find a suitable carrying case. She cradled Aoife’s legacy, a small Irish harp. Centuries of hands had worn the wood in several places, diminishing the deep cut grooves of Celtic swirls decorating the harp. Aoife died in the accident, but her harp survived, a memento of death, a reminder of despair.

Since she wouldn’t play it, I wanted Maud to put away the dirty thing. I wished that she had never inherited it and Aoife’s obsession.

She ran her hand over the strings. The string cut into her palm and left a trail of blood.

“Maud, your hand,” I said. I reached out but dropped my own hand at her frown.

“It’s the blood what tells,” the old man said. He raised his pint in her hand’s direction as if in a toast. “Feeding the harp, are you?”

Maud ignored the blood dripping from her palm. “Listen,” she said. “Do you hear it?”

“What?” I heard only pub noise.

Maud tilted her head to one side. “Don’t you hear it? The tune?”

The old man whistled a low heavy tune. Dark spit spewed from his lips.

Pain crawled along my knee. “Stop it,” I said to him.

He ceased and wiped his mouth.

Maud stroked the harp as if it lived. “It sounded like the old original tune, the one from whence all the others came.” Blood from her cut ran into the Celtic design and over the stain of Aoife’s death mark.

I grasped Maud’s arm. “What nonsense, let’s go.”

The old man placed his hand on my bad knee. I jumped. He held me fast. His fingernails, torn to the quick, showed blood around the rims.

“If it’s the old traditional songs you’re wanting,” he said, “then I know a place, a grand place for the singing, dancing, and playing.” The best music was played after pub hours, in tucked-away-out-of-the-way-hidden places, where the Irish congregate to dance and sing. “It’s only the invited that go, because of the haunting.”

“That’s just tourist talk to spook us. You Irish love telling a tale to us gullible Americans,” I said.

He tightened his grasp.

Heat crawled around my scars.

“For they’re saying as how the place is the home of one of the old ones, the Sidhe. It’s said this one’s a priestess what sacrificed herself.” He dropped his hand.

Maud sat frozen in her chair.

On the clouded window, the old man’s twisted fingers danced as he drew a Celtic symbol that mirrored those on the harp.

“She cut the symbols deep into her skin, till she bled her life away,” he said. He drank again, and smacked his lips. “And if you’re willing to pay for it, she’ll give you your heart’s desire.”

“Can she bring the dead—music to life?” Maud asked.

“Forget it, Maud,” I said.

She gazed at me, her eyes clouded with drink and despair. “Can she make my friend here, Wren, fly through the dance again?”

“I want to go home,” I said. I sounded like a petulant child. I wished we were on the plane already.

I caught sight of myself reflected in the old man’s glasses. There was a smudge of ink on my nose and the humidity made my hair hang in stringy strands, like old brown rope. My long drab grey skirt covered the scars around my knee. What would I pay to dance again? I pushed the thought away.

“Closing!” the bartender shouted.

The old man got up and with a wink danced out the door.

Maud flung the harp back into its blanket and carrying straps.

“Maud—”

“We’ll lose him,” she said. She left, without waiting to see if I was behind her.

I limped after her, her follower as always, out into the Dublin street.

Overhead a solid wall of rain clouds blocked the sun. A light mist rising off the Liffey River muffled the sounds of the early evening traffic. I hoped the cold would dispel the froth of the ale from my mind.

We followed the old man into the winding back streets of the old part of the city. I struggled, moving as fast as I could to keep him in sight. He moved fast for an old man.

Maud stepped quick as if she’d forgotten my pain. Perhaps she had.

“Out of money, out of time, and with any luck, soon I’ll be out of my mind,” Maud sang. The harp thumped on Maud’s back in counterpoint. Even in the failing light, her red hair glistened with the mist, a beacon. The Irish, as they hurried home, brushed past us, their grey-cast faces in the grey mist blurred.

We turned onto a street paved with old, broken cobblestones and patched with tarmac. My weak leg slithered over the wet slick stones and I fell. I felt a sharp edge tear into that leg, the pain a sudden heat, a reminder of great pain not long ago.

“Maud,” I cried.

So intent she was on the figure ahead, she didn’t answer. At last she turned around.

The old man looked back once, spun in a high twirl and vanished around a corner.

“Oh, Wren,” Maud said as she helped me up, “now you’ve lost us again.”

“Nonsense, we’re not far from the Liffey,” I said. I could still smell the dank river stench; hear the muted rumble of traffic.

“Wait,” Maud said. She stood frozen, a blood-haired Virgin of Christ. “Listen.”

I listened and heard the sweet notes of a tin whistle. What other people could coax such music out of a cheap toy, but the Irish?

We followed the high, thready sound. I spotted him first, a young man, a boy almost, as he walked along ahead and played. His clothes looked formal, stiff and uncomfortable, from the back.

“Hey,” Maud called.

He turned a corner and the music ended. We raced after him and into the narrow dark street. The whistle player was nowhere to be seen.

I heard a whisper, like a prayer, that made me feel the cold of the mist. Georgian mansions crowded the sidewalk, aging spinsters gossiping together, their flaking facades old shawls around their crumbling dignity. I couldn’t recall this part of Dublin, dirty and decaying.

“Maud, let’s get out of here,” I said.

“You go.”

I sighed and followed her.

At the end of the alley, a woman swept the stoop of a large stone building, a church. She looked up.

At first I thought her a nun, then she smiled and I saw it was a wimple of black hair that framed her white face. She wore a long black dress that enhanced the effect. What looked like a rosary at first was a long knife, the hilt encrusted with jewels.

Her face shone white and all Irish, strong features over pronounced bones, so close to ugly as to be beautiful. And ageless. I could not guess if she was in her twenties or fifties. Thick, tangled black eyebrows marred her beauty, but leant humor to her face.

“Is this the place?” Maud said, walking toward her.

“If you need,” the woman said. She dipped the broom into a pail of sudsy water and swirled the suds over the steps. In the weak light the water looked dark and thick.

“It’s blood,” I said.

“Aye, it’s the blood what tells,” the woman said.

“A pub fight?” I asked. Like the blood pulsing beneath the skin, Ireland seethes with violence, sometimes erupting like a cut artery.

“No.”

“It’s like someone painted the steps with blood,” Maud said.

“Does it now?” the woman said. She picked up the bucket and slewed the water over the steps. “Look how dark the water runs, like the dark Liffey it is, stained with Irish blood.”

The water wetted my shoes. Something black and oily, a blood clot perhaps, tumbled into the gutter. I limped back.

The woman laughed. “You frightened of a wee bit of blood, are you? You’ll never last long here, then.” She turned up the steps.

“You said if I need,” Maud said to her, “I need a drink.”

The woman turned back. “You can always find a drink in Ireland.”

“It’s not pub hours,” I said. Would we ever get home?

“Aye and this is not a pub,” she said. She smiled, white teeth bright even in the mist. “You can always get a drink in Ireland if you’re willing to pay.”

“I can pay,” Maud said. She stepped toward the woman. She slipped on the steps and almost fell. Aoife’s heavy harp slid over her back and gouged into her shoulder blade.

The woman grabbed her wrist. “Careful now, it wouldn’t be doing to break that lovely harp of yours,” she said.

Maud laughed and said, “It’s not my harp.”

I shivered with the cold in her laugh.

The woman’s hand on Maud’s wrist looked liked it was locked. I wanted to snatch Maud away.

“Maud, please,” I said.

Maud looked at me then, looked at my leg, where the blood still trickled from the cut. “Your friend’s marked,” the woman said. “It’s the blood what tells.”

“Yes, marked with Aoife’s death,” Maud said and turned away from me.

The woman smiled and offered her other arm. I took it, if only to break her concentration on Maud. Beneath the cloth on her arm I felt ridged skin. Beneath my fingers the ridges moved.

“Battle scars,” the woman said.

I hoped it would be warmer inside, though I doubted it. September in Dublin brought a damp, penetrating cold that blew in off the sea. I hadn’t been warm since we’d arrived, perhaps before. Perhaps my heart had frozen.

A blue shield stood affixed next to the heavy oak door of the building.

“Blue plaque disease,” I said. The name the Irish had coined for the myriad commemorative shields, always blue, that decorated so many buildings in historic Dublin. I squinted. “What’s it say?” I peered closer.

Some vandal had scratched over the words. Odd, for the Irish are proud of their heritage and their freedom from British rule. Not even the children would be so bold as to mar a martyr’s memorial.

The woman drew a dirty fingernail across the plaque and added another scratch. “During the uprising the British caught this fellow and shot him to death, making him a martyr to the cause.”

“Why is it all scratched?”

“They found out later that he was a traitor and that it was his own people shot him to death on these very steps. He must have run here, for sanctuary. But this church has been deconsecrated. No sanctuary here. T’was a great pity, that young soldier dying, he could play the tin whistle like none other.”

I heard the strains of a tin whistle, nearby, now. It struck deep within my wound. My feet shuffled in a never-forgotten step. I pulled after the sound, but the woman held me fast.

In the weak light, it seemed her face shone white and luminescent, as if the skull beneath the skin was about to reveal itself.

“The music,” Maud said. She too tugged at the woman’s hold.

The woman started to sing in a deep contralto, rough and rich. I didn’t know the song, couldn’t understand the thick dialect. The air around us vibrated with the wealth of her voice. The tin whistle stopped.

The woman sighed as she unlocked the door with a large, rusty key. “Didn’t have to lock this place, not in the old times, there wasn’t nobody coming in then.”

“You mean because of thieves?” I asked. The increase in drug use had brought more crime and a different violence to Ireland.

“Oh no, had to start locking it when an old drunk crawled in here and died.”

The place looked long abandoned. The pews remained from when it had been a church, only now they lay stacked against the walls. All the other church trappings were stripped away. Nails and light patches showed where crosses and religious paintings had once hung.

A table sat where the altar must have been and on the steps to the altar a few bottles and glasses stood. Even in the cold air, I smelled mildew and rot.

“Froze to death he did, the old fool,” the woman said.

Cheap neon lights hung from the ceiling and I caught sight of Maud’s shadow. The harp slung on her back deformed her into a hunchback.

“Do they come and play here?” Maud asked.

“Oh, aye, every night there’s a celebration.”

The woman led us to the table. Maud eased the harp down onto a chair. She took off her coat and beneath it her white silk shirt, a gift from me, was spotted with blood.

“You’ve got blood on your back,” I said.

“From carrying the harp,” Maud said.

“You carry your own battle scars,” the woman said.

Maud looked at me with the sorrow of forever in her eyes.

I heard a rustle under the table. A small mongrel stared up at me. The dog, black, brown and white and of no determinate breed, gave a tentative sniff at Maud’s harp.

“Get away,” I said. I pushed the dog away with my foot, not wanting to touch his dirty hide. He reminded me of the scrabble-haired mutts who followed the tinkers’ carts. He growled and slunk away.

“Careful there, he bites,” the woman said. She brought the drinks, generous ones of Irish whiskey, to our table.

“Will the musicians come soon?” I asked. We’d missed our plane by now. We’d be on the next one, I swore to myself.

“You impatient American, you have all the time you need.”

A rustle in one of the high windows drew my attention. Ravens nested on the sill, sheltered beneath a cracked windowpane.

“Wasn’t it a Celtic belief that ravens steal the souls of the dead?” Maud asked. She showed no inclination to leave and I resisted the impulse to pluck at her sleeve.

“And how did you come to be knowing the ways of the Celts?” the woman said. She refilled Maud’s glass. She ignored my empty one.

“Part of learning about Irish music is the Celtic stories.”

“Aye, Christians spent centuries trying to bury the old ways. It still lies beneath the skin.” The woman stroked the ridges on her arm. “It still lives in the blood.”

“Looks more like it’s covered with dirt,” I said. I rubbed my foot over the dirty floor. Beneath the dirt, a pattern was carved into the stone. “What’s that? An old tombstone? Are there people buried under this place?”

“Sure, but that’s no tombstone you’re looking at.”

I looked closer.

The marks whorled, lines curled back upon themselves. Somehow they reminded me of my dance notations. I followed the lines with one pointed foot and remembered when I danced barefoot, an elemental gliding along the music. “It looks like an old Celtic ceremonial stone.”

“They built a church upon a Celtic altar? A place of sacrifice?” Maud asked.

“This site’s been holy for a long time.”

“Why was it deconsecrated then?” I asked. I never got an answer for a clatter pulled away my attention.

In one corner, the dog worked at a bundle of black rags tossed there. At least I believed it was rags, until I spotted the round whiteness of a skull and the tumble of bones among the cloth.

“The mad nun,” the woman said. She refilled Maud’s glass. “They say she broke her vows, went mad, and killed her lover right over this stone.”

I swallowed hard. I prayed the bones were only fakes, placed to impress the tourists. I tried to make a joke out of those splashes of white against the black. “And I suppose they walled her up alive?”

“What would her bones be doing out in the open then? No, she danced herself to death and they left her unburied, out of consecrated ground.”

“The Celtic priestesses danced till they died,” Maud said. She stared down at the design on the floor as if all the answers were etched there.

“Maud, you know how the Irish love spooking the tourists,” I said.

The woman laughed. “Don’t worry,” she said, “the lover’s blood’s long since soaked into the stone.” Her sleeve pulled back revealing whorls of deep cut lines in her forearm, the ridged scars. Some of the wounds still oozed blood.

“How much are you charging for all this creepy-old-Irish atmosphere?” I asked.

“What price are you willing to pay?” the woman said. She took off her knife and placed it upon the table.

The old man from the pub came in, carrying a fiddle. He played the opening strains of an old song I at last recognized.

It strummed along in my blood. My good leg beat time, my heart along with it, desperate for the dance. “I guess I can get lost in Dublin,” I whispered.

With the last of my desire for life, I grasped Maud by the arm. “Let’s go home.”

“I am home,” Maud said.

I stared at Maud. Her eyes had glazed over and there was nothing in her face for me. She picked up the knife.

I reached for the blade. “No, don’t.”

“What price will you pay, dancer?” the woman said.

I dropped my hand. I wanted to dance. I needed to dance.

Maud plunged the knife into my heart. I staggered in a parody of dance steps before I fell.

My blood pooled over the floor, running into the grooves of the ceremonial stone. A raven landed upon my breast. He tore at the wound.

Rain beat against the stone walls, like a soft echo of gun fire. The tin whistle player came in and joined in the tune. I saw his face, the streaks of blood on his head from where the stones had struck.

A young woman, dressed in a nun’s habit, danced over the carved stone in the middle of the floor. Her skirts fluttered over the carved pattern in the stone. Around her head ravens flew and the dog nipped at her heels.

Maud kissed me. The pain faded from my leg at last and from my soul.

The music thrums in my dying heart as Maud cuts the ancient lines deep into her arms. Maud picks up her harp and plays, while the nun dances, and the old man fiddles, and the boy plays. I feel my heart dance as my blood soaks into the thirsty stone. I’ve found it, the song of the blood.

For it is the blood what tells.

 

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Blood Tells by Conda Douglas
originally published in the Fall 2011 print edition

 

 


Conda Douglas blogs at Conda's Creative Center. Her story “Blood Tells” comes from a summer she spent in Dublin. It was an interesting time…

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